The Betrayal
by Rev. Alexandra Robinson on April 05, 2023
Matthew 26:1-16
This Holy Week, we walk with Jesus to the cross, following the gospel of Matthew. In this chapter, it is now two days before the Passover meal, and the chief priests and elders are planning to arrest Jesus. They just need one last piece of the puzzle – proof.
They find it in Judas, who comes to them with a simple question:
“What will you give me if I betray him?”
Betrayal is not made just with the intent of hurting another. It always has an ulterior motive – self-indulgence. Whether it is a subliminal need of feeling self-righteous or self-important, or individually powerful or individually prestigious, betrayal not only means hurting another, the betrayer receives something in the process. Betrayal is ultimately a selfish act, and an act done through insecurity of self.
There are many ways we experience betrayal in our lives: when someone talks behind our back negatively about us, or when a loyalty or vow is broken, or when a persons character is misrepresented. For those who are betrayed, it hurts. Badly.
But what we hear later on in this passage is that the betrayer, Judas, is also hurting after he commits this act. He feels so much guilt after this betrayal, that he commits suicide. It warns us to be aware of the dangers of suicide that people feel when relationships have been marred when they have betrayed another, or feel guilty about their actions. When a person is told the relationship is irreparable, or they lose trust in their own decision making, or they struggle to forgive themselves for the harm betrayal does. When a person gets to that dark of a place, it is vital to stop that spiral of pain. The saddest part about Judas’ story is that he thought he was the only one who felt this level of guilt. He felt alone; he didn’t know that all of the other disciples were also deserting Jesus. They too, were separating themselves from Jesus, and yet in the power of resurrection, they live to experience Jesus’ forgiveness and reconciliation. If Judas had just faced another day, I believe he too, would have experienced that forgiving embrace of Jesus.
Judas’ story this Holy week is one that is often demonized, as a “betrayer” and the unforgivable act, continuing the myth of suicide being an unforgivable sin. But I believe that Jesus forgiveness on the cross, forgave all – even the one who betrayed him. I believe this because Jesus has compassion on those who are in pain, who are struggling and who are deep in sadness, especially those in such a dark place as wanting to take their own lives because they can not withstand the pain of living any longer. In the midst of so many of our young teens struggling lately with suicidal thoughts, I pray that they might hold on another day to experience the assurance of Jesus’ embrace of deep love for them. That no matter how they have betrayed another, or how they have been betrayed by another, or how flawed their self-understanding is, or how they perceive others understanding of them, Jesus sees their pain with compassion and has a love and forgiveness for them bigger than anything they could imagine.
Holy Week is a hard week to walk through, addressing our own places of betrayal and darkness and grief. But as you take this journey to the cross and honor all the feelings it encompasses in your life, may you be assured that in facing another day, Jesus’ forgiveness embraces all sins –even betrayal - and offers new life.
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